As a woman, the greatest weapon in your arsenal is yourself. A woman who remains true to herself is unstoppable. This is no big secret. The way society functions is unfavorable to women, and that’s by careful design. We are socialized from birth to be of service. We are taught to shrink ourselves and second guess ourselves at every turn. The patriarchy is not in the business of churning out self-assured women. Self-assured women are not easily controlled.
I’ve never been the type of person not to question things that don’t make sense to me. As you can imagine, growing up in a Christian household, that didn’t always go well. My inability to do as I was told without question was the cause of numerous arguments. I couldn’t help it though, Christianity just didn’t make sense to me. Christian values felt performative and oppressive. Why would I desire to participate in a faith that diminishes and disregards my sex? Why should I be subservient to a god in this life and the afterlife? That sounds a lot like slavery to me. Which, unsurprisingly, is completely on brand with Christianity.
Having started my questioning early, I have been on my spiritual journey for a long time. Over the years I’ve researched, and I’ve pondered. I have dipped my toe in more than a few religions and spiritual practices. From that, I’ve reached the conclusion that religion, in general, isn’t for me. I prefer to have a lot more autonomy. I believe that I’m perfectly capable of navigating my own path to divinity. My god is within. My god is present in every breath I take and every beat of my heart. I don’t need to be led to God. God is present all around me in mother nature.
If I’m to worship my creator, why would I worship a man? I manifested and grew in my mother’s womb, who came from her mother’s womb, who was created by her mother before her. The one who labored to birth me into this existence and nurtured me once I arrived is my creator. That has never been, and will never be, a man.
I worship femininity. I worship my mother. I worship myself.